Goddess Worshipping... feeling the harmony of D/s

After the humiliation training i didn’t feel humiliated. Of course, Supreme Goddess Lorena did humiliating things to me. And i did understand She or any future Mistress has the right to humiliate me, be it as a punishment or as a mere amusement for Her. But during the training course my resistance to being humiliated decreased. Where in the Basis Obedience Course i learned i am a lowly man, during the Humiliation Course i learned to accept it and to become an object that a Superior Woman can use at Her will. And after all, for a lowly male it isn’t humiliating to be used by a Superior Lady. What really is humiliating is not being used by Her.

All sustainable relations are reciprocal in some way. This is true for a D/s relationship too. i felt that the right of a Superior Woman to humiliate me, is the part of the dynamics flowing from the Mistress to the slave. What has a slave to give in return to keep the dynamics going? Supreme Goddess Lorena is very clear about it: a lowly man must worship a Superior Lady as a Goddess. And that is the next training course She ordered me to take: the Goddess Worshipping training.

Of course, because Supreme Goddess Lorena wants to be called a Goddess, i was used to call Her Supreme Goddess Lorena. This is an elementary rule in the ‘protocol’ of any D/s relationship. At the same time i was puzzled about it. Raised in a Christian tradition it was almost a sin to call a living person a Goddess. And now, the Woman who i felt so attracted to, and who was so kind to take responsibility for my submission, was asking me to learn how to worship Her as a Goddess. Wasn’t that a bridge to far? At the same time, i really felt it was an ‘invitation’ of the Goddess to give it a try, not an ‘obligation’. So, why not give it a try?

As i feel it now, at that moment Supreme Goddess Lorena opened the doors to a new reality for me. She showed me it is possible to integrate a spiritual dimension into a D/s relationship and that it makes that relationship complete. Also in my previous articles on my training i was reluctant to go into my personal experiences to much. Not that i don’t want to share them with you. But i want to encourage you to seek your own experiences. This is certainly true for everything relating to spirituality. For everyone who is open to it, there is a spiritual path into Female Supremacy, but it will be a most personal one. What makes Supreme Goddess Lorena a true Goddess is that She can lead many males on their own personal path.

When i entered the Goddess Worhip training i thought it would be something ‘soft’ – learning some prayers, kneeling with a devoted smile before the image of the Goddess. But maybe this is the hardest training Supreme Goddess Lorena offers to aspirant slaves. For a large part of the program, the slave has to train his body functions, and i mean the most elementary of them. Supreme Goddess Lorena really asks Her slaves to push their limits. Of course through control of the body, a lowly man is no longer the slave of his body, but he opens up to relate to a reality that is deeper and more beautiful. And than, by learning some essential rituals a lowly man learns to see Supreme Goddess Lorena is at the heart of that reality. Suddenly you become aware it is a great opportunity to worship Her, and through that worshipping to connect that deeper reality. You understand you are a lowly man, but that is just your place in nature, and at the same time you understand the very special place of Supreme Goddess Lorena, and you feel happy at Her feet.

Is it ‘soft’? Maybe, because you feel the perfect harmony of the Mistress/slave-relationship. But it is ‘hard’ too, because you are aware of the consequences. You are in this world to serve a Superior Lady, and even in the basic functioning of your body it are no longer your needs but the superior needs of your Mistress that are important. And for you, if you want to be a good slave, it will be a permanent condition to control your body to be in the state of obedience and servitude your Mistress deserves.

To end this article i just want to share two thoughts with you. What is wonderful about Supreme Goddess Lorena is that She began to call Herself a Goddess without ‘understanding’ all the consequences of it. It is just because She felt so many disrespect from lowly males, that She tought: maybe if I call Myself a Goddess, they will understand what respecting a Woman means. But once She called Herself a Goddess, She began to understand She truly is a Goddess, that it isn’t just a name, but Her destiny. Entering the Spiritual World of Supreme Goddess Lorena is not entering a ‘fixed’ and ‘static’ religion, it is entering a dynamic spirituality that evolves as the life of Supreme Goddess Lorena evolves. And by giving your energy as a worshipper, you contribute to that development. This is beautiful.

And to end: if i read through forums on BDSM-websites i often read words connected to ‘worship’. Like in ‘i am a foot worshipper’, or ‘what do you like more as a slave: to worship the feet of your Mistress or the bottom of your Mistress.’ After the worshipping training at the Academy for slaves, i honestly must say i consider that kind of talk as a cheap form of fetishism, oriented to fulfil the needs of the slave, not oriented to truly worship the Superior Lady who is high above you in every aspect of Her life. I don’t say this to be rude, i just say because i discovered there is more then ‘cheap fetishism’, there is a world of ‘deep devotion’. And because i find it a beautiful world, i just want to invite you to explore that world.