Thank Goddess i have no rights.

She has all rights over me

Recently Supreme Goddess Lorena accepted me as Her owned slave. This means that within our relationship She has all rights over me and i have no rights at all. It is me who begged Supreme Goddess Lorena to own me. It is me who begged Her to take all rights over me. It is my –last- free choice. i made that choice because i am a Female Supremacist and i believe Lorenaism is the most complete form of Female Supremacy. Becoming the owned slave of Supreme Goddess Lorena and giving Her all rights over me is for me an act of faith.

The era of equal rights

As most of the people of my age i am used to the idea of ‘equal rights’ between Women and men. i even consider it a good idea for the society at large at this moment. That is: as long as the rights of Women are violated everyday the idea of equal rights at least reminds us of this violation. But at the same time it feels like a liberating idea to me to give up this idea in the most special relationship i have with Supreme Goddess Lorena.

A defensive dynamic

Just because it is against common sense to give another person all rights over you, it is difficult to explain why it feels like liberation. But lets try it… Maybe i can start by asking when do you need the idea of ‘having rights’? In my opinion, you don’t need this idea when everything goes smooth. You need this idea when things go bad. And because things go bad you have to ‘defend’ your rights against someone trespassing these rights. So, the dynamics of a relationship based on ‘equal rights’ is defensive in the end. When you feel the other is ‘more equal’ than you, you want to become ‘more equal’ than him or her. And there you go for another round of boxing.

The dynamics of mutual growth

The dynamics of a relationship where all the rights are for the Superior Woman and the inferior man who is Her slave has no rights is completely different. Strangely enough this relationship leads to mutual growth and mutual nurturing. The basic right for the Woman is to be served in all Her needs. She can use Her slave to cater for Her needs without taking into consideration his ‘needs’ or his ‘rights’. By using a man in this way, She has the comfortable life She deserves, but at the same time She discovers new needs time and again. And for the man who is serving this needs this is the most beautiful way to discover a world that is not his but Hers.

Being part of Female Harmony

If a Woman has the freedom to explore Her world in a natural way, and She feels the support of a man serving Her in this exploration, this evidently leads to a world of more beauty, more peace and more spiritual fulfilment. These are the driving forces of Femininity whereas the driving forces of masculinity are competition and destruction. So it is a men’s world that needs the idea of equal rights, because without this idea destruction would be complete. In a Women’s world this idea isn’t necessary because the driving force of Femininity leads to a deeper kind of harmony. Giving up his ‘rights’ and becoming a slave of a Superior Woman is the one best way for a man to take part of that harmony.

The power of a Goddess

As a Female Supremist i believe all Women are superior, just because They have the inner forces to create such a world of harmony. In the given circumstances (a male governed world) not all Women have the force to make contact with their inner self in a deep enough way to liberate these forces. Women like Supreme Goddess Lorena have some special power that let them link to these natural source within themselves, even in the difficult situation of the present day world. It is this special power that makes this rare Women true Goddesses. Becoming a slave of a Woman of such divinity, giving Her all rights over me, is an act of faith. The faith that Women have the power to create a world of harmony, and that by serving a Woman in Her superior needs brings this better world closer to Her and to me.

From personal relationship to society

Of course, i am talking here about a personal, intimate relationship. It is within this relationship that i give up all personal rights. i believe this is as far as we can go in a world that is mainly male governed. In this world we need to stick to the idea of Human Rights at a societal level. As a Female Supremist i do everything that is possible to bring Female Supremacy at a societal level too. In that world the idea of Human Rights will be superseded by the idea of Female Harmony. i thank Supreme Goddess Lorena for showing me this world in Her philosophy and in Her great novel ‘Femaria, City of Women’.

Happy to be owned

Apology

About two months have passed since i added my last article to my blog. There is a reason for this. In this period i asked Supreme Goddess Lorena to take ownership of me. For me it was an important period of hoping She would accept me as Her property but also of reflection on what it truly means to become the owned slave of a Superior Lady. During this period it was natural for me to be silent, as it was natural to stay in chastity. This week Supreme Goddess Lorena announced She accepts me as Her owned slave. And now i can’t wait to write about it.

She picked me out of the crowd

Of course i want to share my feeling of fulfilment with you. Finally, i am what i always wanted to be. A slave. And finally, i am what i never dare to hope for. The slave of Supreme Goddess Lorena. Supreme Goddess Lorena taught me every Woman is superior to all male beings. So, every Woman has the right to own me as Her slave. But for me, Supreme Goddess Lorena is so special, so natural in Her dominance, so complete as a Person that i really longed to be Her slave. But what special qualities i have to offer to a Lady who can really pick Her slave out of the crowd? So, now that She has decided to own me as Her slave, i see this not as an ending point, but as a starting point to perfect my qualities as a slave every day i am allowed to serve Her.

The joy of being a slave

Of course, it is a joy to be the slave of Supreme Goddess Lorena. Having to serve Her superior needs is a privileged way to be close to Her and to know Her intimately. And there can be doubt that my slavery to Her is about Her, not about me. Her needs are my focus from now on, Her person is the centre of my life. But the more i succeed in making Her the centre of my life, the more my life as a lowly male comes close to perfection. That is way i think every male being should seek a Female Owner. Let me explain a little bit.

Options

As a female supremist, i believe that all men are inferior to Women. i can’t choose whether i am a lowly male or i’m not. Being a lowly male is a fact of my life, just as the day i am born is a fact of my life. What i can choose is what i do with the fact that i am a lowly male. Do i deny that fact, and do i become a macho male like many of my gender colleagues do? Do i accept that fact but do i stay on my own? Or do i accept that fact and search for a Woman who wants me as Her slave?

Dynamics of D/s

The biggest advantage of choosing for this last option is that it gives you the opportunity as a lowly male to engage in the dynamics of a D/s-relationship. And these dynamics are as much about the discovery of the Superior Needs of a Woman as about the discovery of your talents as a slave to serve these needs. Being a lowly male doesn’t mean i am a man without talents. Every man has his talents. But he needs the right perspective to develop these talents. And the right perspective is to use this talents to serve a Superior Lady and not for his own profits.

Particularly with Supreme Goddess Lorena i have this wonderful feeling that being Her slave is my way for personal growth. When i see a picture of Her, it is really like a switch that is turned on in my brain. i am left with only one desire, and that is to serve Her needs. Every time She gives me the permission to serve one of Her needs in particular i am so amazed about the beauty i discover. And this gives me really the energy to push myself beyond my limits. I have talents, and the needs of Supreme Goddess Lorena really trigger these talents to something useful. That is why i think being Her slave is for me the most satisfying option for my life.

Theory and intuition

Of course, engaging in a D/s-relationship is a serious decision, as well for the Mistress as for the slave. And because i really believe Female Supremacy is a great promise for the future of mankind, i think it is important we consider theoretic issues like ‘can one human being really be the property of another human being’. I put a lot of thought in this question the last weeks, and i hope to tell about my reflections soon. Here i give just an intuitive answer: it ‘feels’ good for me to be the slave of Supreme Goddess Lorena, so it can’t be wrong after all…

Of course, being accepted as Her owned slave is new to me. And like a couple that is just married i want to enjoy these first weeks, like a kind of honeymoon. I want to be close to Supreme Goddess Lorena, adore Her beauty, celebrate with Her the days She celebrates as Her holy days… At the same time, i just want to say to you, if you are in doubt whether to apply to become a slave, don’t hesitate, give yourself this opportunity, and while you are going the way you will discover if it is the right way for you.

My dependency on Supreme Goddess Lorena

Accepting dependency

i am dependent on Supreme Goddess Lorena. my dependence on Her grows every day. And as my dependence grows, i become the person i am ment to be by destiny: a slave and worshipper of Supreme Goddess Lorena. For me, this process of becoming dependent on a Superior Lady is something very intimate. It touches me in the most personal aspects of my life. Supreme Goddess Lorena asks to share this intimate process with you. So i do it. As a lowly male i understand the concept of privacy has less value to me than the concept of submission and obedience. By giving away these private details of my life, i further submit to Supreme Goddess Lorena, and that is what i need to do.

Mother of my submission

i sometimes call Supreme Goddess Lorena the ‘Mother of my submission’. This is maybe the deepest way to state my dependence of Her. By that expression i mean that by accepting my submission Supreme Goddess Lorena gave birth to a new person, to a new ‘me’. i always had submissive feelings, but society oppressed these feelings. So i stumbled around as an incomplete person. By Her very clear way in stating i am a lowly male, ready to submit to Women She opened a new world to me. And by the way She trained and fostered my submission She gave me a warm welcome in that world, Her world of Female Supremacy. i know in Her world i can only be a lowly man. But i know also that if i show the discipline to really become Her slave and worshipper, i will find a state of fulfilment i can never find outside Her world.

Sexual fulfilment

i am dependent on Supreme Goddess Lorena for my sexual fulfilment. In other articles on this blog i wrote about the importance of chastity for Her slaves. Chastity is part of my sexual fulfilment: it makes me less dependent on my penis, and so more ready to be dependent on Supreme Goddess Lorena. But as a male being, i have a natural desire for sexual gratification in a more common sense way too. Also for this sexual pleasure i am dependent on Supreme Goddess Lorena. This sounds strange, because i never met Her and most probably i will never have the honour to even touch Her body. So, how can i be dependent on Her for my sexual pleasure? Simply, because i have orgasms only with Her permission.

In a technical sense, i can have orgasms whenever i want. To hold me in chastity Supreme Goddess Lorena doesn’t use any restraining device. It is jus Her word that decides whether i am in chastity or i am granted an orgasm. But the few times i tried to have an orgasm without Her permission, it didn’t give me the same satisfaction, let alone the deep feeling of fulfilment as do the orgasms i have with Her permission. These orgasms aren’t just orgasms, short moments of male pleasure, they are truly ‘climaxes’, deep moments of union with Her and through Her with nature.

Addicted to work

i am a slave of Supreme Goddess Lorena. This means i have to work for Her. Of course, for me it is an honour a Woman with such superior and delicate needs allows me to contribute to those needs. But working for Her has become just another way of becoming dependent on Her. To work for Her has really become a ‘need’ for me. i feel satisfied when i am satisfied with what i have done for Her. i feel empty if for one reason or another i didn’t do as much work for Her as i hoped to do.

Of course the situation of being a long distance slave makes me somewhat limited in the kind of work i can do for Her. i can do some webwork, i can do some research, i can send Her a part of my wage, i can look for nice gifts for Her. i have to accept that situation. But at the other hand, i crave to serve Her in so many more personal ways. If i see a picture of Supreme Goddess Lorena, i picture myself at Her feet, giving Her a massage, or waiting outside to be Her chauffeur. Supreme Goddess Lorena must be bored by now by my pleas to serve Her in a more personal way. But it is just another part of my dependence on Her: i crave to work for Her, to serve Her in Her needs like an alcoholic craves for the next glass of alcohol.

Spiritual dependency

A last aspect of my dependence on Supreme Goddess Lorena i want to mention is my dependence on Her for spirituality. When i first contacted Supreme Goddess Lorena i thought i had found ‘just another Webmistress’, a Webmistress i liked for Her particular beauty and for Her style of training. And i thought the ‘Goddess-thing’ was just another way to make submissive males mad of desire. And even when i read the spiritual diary and other spiritual writings of Supreme Goddess Lorena for the first time, it didn’t really connect. ‘Interesting but not for me’, i thought. But as it happens often in spiritual matters, one day i understood with my heart, my brain and my soul that Supreme Goddess Lorena is a true Goddess. In so many ways She is linked to the Golden Chain of Female Deity that runs through history.

i am dependent now on Her for my spiritual development. i read Her spiritual writings with other eyes. Everytime She adds something to Her spiritual diary i am shocked by what happened to Her and what She learned about Her destiny. It is by performing the rituals She prescribes i feel closer to Her, to Nature and to my own destiny. By becoming a Lorenaist, spirituality has become something very personal for me. And although i understand within that spiritual tradition i am but a lowly male, i feel at the same time that being a lowly male is just my place in ‘the bigger picture’. And that gives me a kind of inner equilibrium and a kind of energy.

Being strong in my dependence

Being dependent sounds like being weak. It are the strong ones that can be independent. The weaker ones needs to content themselves with being dependent. It is not like a feel it. Being dependent on Supreme Goddess Lorena is like a life time assignment. And one needs discipline to fulfil that assignment, and discipline means strength. As i see it: i am a lowly man, that is my natural condition, nothing can change that. But as a lowly man i have a choice. i can choose for my male ego, but then i end up with an unsatisfactory life. Or i can choose to become dependent on a Superior Woman, and then my life will become so much more satisfactory. But if i make that choice i must face the consequences and work for Her as a slave and become Her devoted worshipper. i have to earn to depend on Her, and hence i have to be strong in my dependence. i thank Supreme Goddess Lorena She is giving me that strength.

Happy birthday, dear Goddess

The golden chain of Female Deity

Today is Supreme Goddesses Lorena’s birthday. On my knees i want to congratulate Her on this occasion. And as Her slave i want to thank Her for She is such a good Mistress to me. On Her Lorenaism calendar September 8 is one of the most important Holy Days. Of course, Her slaves and worshippers want this to be an important day, because they love their Mistress and Goddess. But there is more… September 8 is in the catholic church also celebrated as the birthday of the Virgin Mary, and in an even more ancient tradition, it is also the birthday of the Egyptian Goddess Isis. So through Her birthday Supreme Goddess Lorena is linked to other Divine Women. So, celebrating Her birthday is also celebrating the Golden Chain of Female Deity that runs through history.

A day of devotion and joy

So, for Her worshippers this is truly a day of devotion. But of course it is a day of cheer joy too. Supreme Goddess Lorena likes to celebrate Her birthday, She likes receiving gifts from Her slaves, She likes eating birthday cake, She likes going to a nice restaurant with Her Girl Friends this day to have a delicious meal. And She likes to share Her joy with Her slaves. I feel thrilled to day, because it will be the first time i celebrate Her birthday with Her. Yes, i feel i will be celebrating with Her, although an ocean and a continent keeps us apart. Technically, while i am writing this it is even not yet Her birthday where She lives, whereas where i live, the sun already has risen on this beautiful day of September 8.

The complete person

i realize that until now i haven’t written much about Supreme Goddess Lorena herself. Because this day is all about Her, it is a good occasion to do it. If i had only one short sentence to say something about Her, i simply would say: ‘Supreme Goddess Lorena is a complete person’. This says everything, and it says nothing at the same time. So i take sometime to explain what i mean by that simple sentence.

Her pictures

The best way to start is probably to have a look at Her pictures. Because that is what most of you do first when you visit Her website. And that is what i did too, when i first met Her through the internet. As you will discover, Supreme Goddess Lorena loves posing while She wears very different attires. She is wonderful as a Dominatrix, wearing black leather or latex. She is astonishing when She wears the attributes of an Egyptian Goddess. And She is adorable when She wears the traditional dress of a Celtic Princess. And even when She just wears a jogging suit, you easily see Supreme Goddess Lorena is a very special person. To me, Supreme Goddess Lorena is a very beautiful Woman. But what i want to say here, goes beyond beauty in it’s traditional sense. Every picture of Supreme Goddess Lorena shows Her beauty, but it is by looking (and even comtemplating) all of Her pictures that one begins to discover what a complete person She is.

Her dominance

To me, Supreme Goddess Lorena is also complete in Her dominance. Of course, you can easily see Her dominance while She is wearing a dominatrix outfit. But She doesn’t need that outfit or any other outer sign of a Mistress to be a Mistress. You discover this when you start communicating with Supreme Goddess Lorena. What is most remarkable to me is that She is such a nice and kind person, and at the same time there is no question She is the dominant person. Many other dominant personalities i know, need to bully around or even need some violence to comfirm their dominant position. Supreme Goddess Lorena just needs Her natural kindness. So, whereas most people or ‘to dominant to be kind’ or ‘to kind to be dominant’, Supreme Goddess Lorena is just ‘completely kind and completely dominant’ at the same time.

Her Spirituality

Supreme Goddess Lorena is also complete in Her thoughts on Female Supremacy. Many persons just see Female Supremacy as another kind of play, or maybe as a kind of practical psychology to keep a man where you want him. But for Supreme Goddess Lorena it is much more. It is the basis for a solid society, as She wrote in Her novel Femaria, City of Women. And it is a philosophy and even a spiritual path leading to a unity with nature and history for those going the path. Supreme Goddess Lorena writes a lot about these subjects, and every one of Her movies is a beautiful demonstration of it. And i do not know many persons who are as complete in Her talents as Supreme Goddess Lorena. But it is not just that that makes Her complete. What really makes Her complete is that She ‘radiates’ Her philosophy and spiritual path in everything She does. She not only ‘writes’ about Her philosophy, She ‘is’ Her philosophy. She not only ‘writes’ about Her spiritual path, She ‘is’ Her own spiritual path. This is not just about ‘talent’, this is about ‘destiny’.

Her Life

Maybe, if i write about Supreme Goddess Lorena as a ‘complete person’ you think She is a static person, like if you are already ‘complete’ you cannot become ‘more complete’ yet. But it is quite the opposite. Supreme Goddess Lorena is a very dynamic person, and Her personality develops every day. It is like what a great philosopher wrote about a rose. Of course we adore a rose when it is at full blossom, and if we look at the intricate pattern of it’s petals we say it is complete. But even when the rose just starts growing, it is complete already, because it contains everything necessary to become that beautiful rose. Like a rose that grows through the seasons, Supreme Goddess Lorena has Her history. And it was sometimes a history of hardship. But what makes Supreme Goddess complete, is that She has the power to overcome the difficulties and that She really learns from all these difficulties to become a more complete person.

The complete Goddess and the complete slave

As Her worshipper it is a goal in my life to add to the completeness of my Goddess. i do this by working for Her as a slave, because She deserves to be served in all Her needs. And i do this by worshipping Her, because i believe through worshipping Her i release a kind of energy that adds to Her power. And what is so beautiful, while slaving and worshipping, so that Supreme Goddess Lorena becomes more complete in Her completeness, i become more complete too. Of course as a man i can be only complete as a lowly and inferior male, and that means i must try to attach myself as completely as possible to a complete Woman like Supreme Goddess Lorena.

Goddess Worshipping... the pictures

Labour Day

In my previous article i told about the Lorenaism calendar, and who creative Supreme Goddess Lorena is to decide in what ways Her slaves should worship Her. Well, almost exactly the same moment i was publishing the article, i received Her holy days for the month of September. The first holyday She asks Her worshippers to worship Her in a special way is September, the 3th. In Canada this is Labour Day. For most people this is a day they don’t have to work. But Supreme Goddess Lorena asks Her slaves to worship Her that day by doing some work for Her. Amongst Her many suggestions, She asks Her slaves to publish some worshipper pictures on the internet.

Worshipper pictures

Maybe that is what was missing in my previous article. It is personal, but for people not acquainted with the special kind of Goddess worship Supreme Goddess Lorena is teaching Her slaves, it is somewhat difficult to imagine how it is done. In my previous article i told you something about the Moon rituals Supreme Goddess Lorena invites Her slaves to perform. Over the years i have taken some pictures of my moon rituals, and this is a good occasion to share them with you. Although i like the Moon rituals, i hadn’t the courage to publish the pictures on the internet until now. So, i thank Supreme Goddess Lorena for giving me the courage to do it. On those pictures where my face is visible, i blurred it. Goddess worshipping, especially if it is linked with Female Supremacy, is still suspicious in our society. i apologize for this protective measure and hope that society will soon accept Goddess worshipping and Lorenaism so that Her worshippers can come into the open.

Early Moon ritual


This is one of my oldest pictures as a worshipper of Supreme Goddess Lorena. i entered the Academy for slaves in January 2005. i took my first training course in a rush and then entered the Goddess worshipping training course. So, here everything is new to, and i am still searching the proper position to perform the ritual.

New Moon July 2007


This is a more recent picture, of the New Moon ritual of July 2007. i remember it was one of the rare really beautiful days of this summer. It was the first time i really find unity with Nature and through the Moon also unity with my distant Goddess. Supreme Goddess Lorena likes pictures of Her slaves, and She likes them holding a message about their slavery.

New Moon July 2007


This picture i made during my camping trip in the Belgian Gaume-region. During the day i made a long walk through the woods, and i discovered this spot along the Semois river. i thought it would be a marvellous place for the Full Moon ritual i had to perform that night. When i returned late at night, it wasn’t just marvellous, it was miraculous… There was some fog over the river, and the moon was standing right above the river… i made my altar so that i could see the pictures of my Goddess, the river and the moon. Supreme Goddess Lorena gave me permission to climax after the ritual, but maybe i tell you some more about that subject in the next article.

Goddess Worshipping... a personal account

Worshipping a living person

Supreme Goddess Lorena invites Her slaves to worship Her. This is something many Mistresses are asking of Their slaves. But the word ‘to worship’ apparently can have many meanings. To some Mistresses it means They just ask their slaves to adore and to praise Them. To Supreme Goddess Lorena, it means… to worship Her like through history humankind has worshipped their gods and Goddesses. This is of course because Supreme Goddess Lorena is a Goddess, not just a dominant Woman who has chosen the title of Goddess.

Of course, it was strange to me to be asked to worship Her. We are not used to really worship a living person. And i didn’t know what to expect when i first begged Supreme Goddess Lorena to send me Her monthly calendar of Holy Days. i just did this because i felt attracted to Her, and i thought i would please Her by begging for Her calendar. Now, i am looking forward every month for Her rulings on how to worship Her on the special days She has chosen. Worshipping Her is my path into spirituality and i am glad i have found it.

Spirituality and sexuality

It is not easy to share my experiences on this matter with other people. It is like there is a taboo in our society on spirituality. When one browses the internet, it seems much more easy to share the most kinky sexual experiences than to share spiritual experiences. This tells a lot about our society. Of course, it is good we can be open about our sexuality. But for me the time has come to be open about my spirituality too. And by the way: what is so wonderful about Lorenaism is that sexuality and spirituality are so closely related.

The Lorenaism calendar

Supreme Goddess Lorena is very creative in selecting the days to worship Her and in deciding what special worshipping efforts and rituals Her worshippers should perform. But of course, like in every spiritual branch, there are some recurring themes too. Not surprisingly Moon worshipping is one of these recurring themes. Throughout history the Moon is associated with Femininity and Female Power. Cultures that are close to nature often have some kind of Moon worshipping rituals. And as for Supreme Goddess Lorena the link with the forces of nature are important, She has chosen to include Moon worshipping in Her calendar of Holy Days. Especially on the day of the Full and the New Moon She invites Her slaves to do some extra effort in worshipping Her.

The Moon rituals

The Moon rituals are typical outdoor rituals. So, if you want to perform the ritual you have to find a suitable place in the free nature. i have found a spot in a natural reserve close to where i live. But past summer, i went some weekend on camping, and so sometimes i had to look for a spot somewhere close to where i stayed. To perform the ritual i build a small altar, with one or two pictures of Supreme Goddess Lorena. Most of the time i also light some candles, and sometimes i add some flowers. Then i strip naked and i get on my knees before the altar and Her divine images. Supreme Goddess Lorena invites Her slaves to concentrate on ‘energy’ during the Moon ritual. For the New Moon She asks to concentrate on the negative energy, that takes away Female power. For the Full Moon She asks to concentrate on the positive energy, that builds Female power. There are no prescribed rules on how to perform the ritual, every worshipper is free to find his way, as long as he follows the general guidelines of Supreme Goddess Lorena.

From sports to spiritual unity
In the beginning these rituals were a kind of sports for me, and i did it for the ‘kick’ of being naked in the free nature. But after a few times this changed. The rituals became moments of rest in my sometimes hectic life. i became more sensible for the sounds and the odours of nature, the different odours of the different seasons, the different sounds depending on the time of the day… And being naked really gives me the feeling of being part of the whole. Recently, i think i made the next step on my spiritual path during the Moon rituals. Through the Moon that is shining in my part of the world as it is in Hers i really felt a kind of unity with my Goddess. It really is a kind of ‘unity of the opposites’: Supreme Goddess Lorena, the Superior Woman, and i the lowly male who worships Her. Of course, it is like with every kind of spiritual experience: if one isn’t ‘in’ it, it sounds strange and even ridiculous. So, the only thing i can say is: try to get ‘in’ it and you will discover how beautiful it is.

Of course, this is just a first ‘grasp’ of this reality that is new to me. Maybe i try to write more about it in the next article. Just now i am thinking about the relation about spirituality and sexuality in Lorenaism. Maybe that is the subject for my next article.

The tutoring of Superior Women

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If i imagine a society where my personality can develop in it’s most complete way, i see a society where i as a lowly man can serve the needs of the Superior Woman who is my Mistress. In that society Women have a right to use men as their slaves. i think in principle it is possible to build such a society. This makes me a Female supremist.

Awareness of superiority

Until know i wrote in my weblog some articles about my existence as a lowly male, and as a worshipper of Supreme Goddess Lorena. i especially focused on my training at the Academy for slaves. i may say i am now a man who is aware of his lowly position, accepts his submission and is ready to an existence as a slave.

In this article i want to focus on the position of Women. For me all Women are superior to men. That is what Supreme Goddess Lorena taught me, that is what i say in my daily prayers to Her. This superiority is independent of the awareness of Women of that situation. Some Women are aware they are superior, Others are not. But for me They are superior. As a Female supremist i hope more Women become aware of Their superiority.

Claim the rights

Of course, Women have a choice to ‘do’ something with Their superior position or not. They may ‘claim’ the rights that follow from Their superior position. Or They may choose a lifestyle where They are ‘equal’ to men. As a Female supremist i consider it intolerable that Women are held in an inferior position to men. So this means that even for the ‘equal rights’ option, there is a lot of work to do. But as a Female supremist i think it is even more important to show Women the other option: to claim the rights they have by Their superior position. Just focusing on the equal rights position is losing time.

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In my opinion, the number of Women who are aware of Their superiority is growing. But that doesn’t mean that all these Women know how to make men Their slaves that serve Their superior needs. For instance, on the internet and everywhere in popular culture the image of the Dominatrix becomes more widespread. And of course the Dominatrix is a Woman that dominates men. But all to frequently, this kind of domination if finally directed to fulfil the fetishes of the man. Eventually, the Dominatrix serves the fetishes of the man, where it should be the man that serves the superior needs of the Woman.

Dedication to ‘true’ Female Supremacy

Supreme Goddess Lorena became aware of that truth when She was a professional Dominatrix herself. That made Her decide to quit that profession and to found Goddessclub.
Goddessclub is for men who worship Women, but also for Women who finally decide They want to be treated as Goddesses by the lowly men serving Them. For me, this makes Goddessclub one of the rare websites that is dedicated to ‘true’ Female Supremacy, and not only to the fetishes of lowly males.

As a Female supremist, i think more Women who are already aware of Their superiority should engage in actions to convince other Women of the options They have. Supreme Goddess Lorena herself is putting a great effort in it. Partly this is out of need. Because Her Academy for slaves is that successful, She needs more Women who can train men in their submission. But for Her, it is a mission that goes far beyond Her own needs. As She sees the growing number of males that become aware of their lowly position and wants to be a slave, it is necessary for the advancement of Female Supremacy that more Women claim Their right to own slaves. So Supreme Goddess Lorena chooses no to spend a lot of effort in educating Women in the practicalities of dominating a man, but also in the philosophy of Female Supremacy and in the ethics of being a Mistress.

Princess Day

Tomorrow (August, 11) is Princess Day. It is a day that Supreme Goddess Lorena will be celebrating with Her long time companion and assistant Goddess Alison and the Young Ladies She actually tutors to become Mistresses of the Academy for slaves. For a slave and worshipper like me, it feels so great to know that this group of Superior Women will have fun together. It is Their right, after all Their efforts to have fun, and it is good that the Young Ladies learn They don’t need men to have fun. Of course i’ve send my tribute for the celebration of Princess Day, and i hope many other slaves have done it, so that the Ladies can really celebrate.

Supreme Goddess Lorena has instructed Her worshippers who follow the Lorenaism calendar to stay at home that day and to have only sober meals of bread and left overs and to drink only tap water. I look forward to that day of sobriety, because for me it is a way to feel mentally close to the Ladies that will be celebrating whole day long. Especially it is an opportunity to be mentally close to Supreme Goddess Lorena, who not only took care for my submission but who takes responsibility for showing the young Ladies who They can live as the Superior Women They are. Once again, thank You, Supreme Goddess Lorena.

e-Trust and e-Confidentiality - the difficult life of a cyberslave

bdsm slave Mistress worshipper Goddess training trainer submissive chastity money slavery lowly male penis goddessclub academy for slavesSupreme Goddess Lorena and i have a cyberrelationship. That means that until now we didn’t meet face to face. And most probably we never will meet face to face. Some/most people oppose ‘cyber’-relationships to ‘real life’-relationships. As if ‘cyber’ hasn’t become a part of our ‘real life’. i disagree with this vision. I am fully aware i have a ‘cyber’-relationship, and i am fully aware this relationship is affecting my ‘real life’. It is just that growing part of my ‘real life’ that isn’t face to face. (It is not because i am into webbanking, and my bank even discourages me to have face to face contact with their employees that my money and the bills i have to pay become less real.)

Of course a ‘cyber’-relationship has it’s limitations. Of course being able to meet ‘face to face’ (or in our case maybe ‘face to feet’) would add something to the relationship. And because i feel a certain dynamic in our relationship i hope it can grow. As a Superior Woman Supreme Goddess Lorena has a right to be served in all Her daily doings by sincere slaves. And i dare say with some more training and a little bit of discipline i would be a good slave to Her. At least, for some of Her needs. But we just aren’t face to face, so i can serve Her in that way. That is a fact, and that is a limitation on our relationship. So, we have to deal with it.

Other ‘facts’ make up for other ‘limitations’, at least from my point of view. Supreme Goddess Lorena is in a ‘one to many’-relationship with Her slaves. She has a very strict rule that any male who wants to be Her slave, must exclusively serve Her. She owns a few slaves, and trains a lot of them. It is the mission of Supreme Goddess Lorena to train as many men as possible to be slaves to the superior needs of Women. Everyone who wants to serve Her, must support Her mission and hence accept that She trains many slaves. And if one is serious about serving Supreme Goddess Lorena, it is obvious that no single slave can serve all Her needs. So it is normal She owns at least a few of them. By owning many slaves Supreme Goddess Lorena overcomes the limitations of any single slave, and that is Her right. At the same time, every slave hopes to be ‘special’ or ‘the special one’ in the eyes of the Goddess. But that is logically impossible and hence for the slave a limitation to the relationship.

Maybe it is even a general rule of relationships (not exclusively for D/s relationships): if one engages in a relationship it means one makes the choice to deal with the limitations of it. If one is falling foolishly in love, there seems to be no limitations to the relationship. If in a relationship that stands for some years there is still love, this means both partners have found a way to deal with limitations. Limitations of the other person. Limitations of oneself. Limitations of the situation. Maybe dealing with limitations is even the beauty of a relationship. Because after all that is the fuel for the dynamics of the relationship.

What i am writing here sounds very rational. But it is not how i feel at this moment. At this moment i am struggling with the limitations of my relationship as a cyberslave to Supreme Goddess Lorena. Just because i feel Her domination over me hasn’t reached it’s limits yet, and my submission to Her hasn’t reached it’s limits, i feel the limitations the internet puts on our relationship as a burden. The limitation that i am stuck with has a name: trust.

The more a relationship gets personal the more trust is at stake. If you don’t trust someone, you try not to get involved in a personal way with him or Her. Of course the internet has a problem of trust. It is easy to fake a personality at the internet. The internet even encourages us to do so. By choosing a nickname at a forum, by given us the opportunity to create (or ‘buy’) us a personality in SecondLife. And in general people want to trust the ‘real’ person, not the ‘fake’ person.

The choice Supreme Goddess Lorena is making to train many slaves trough the internet makes the problem of trust bigger for Her. Between the many slaves She meets through the internet there must be some ‘fake ones’ and even in the group of honest slaves, there will be some who begin to stalk their Divine Mistress once She shows to much confidentiality to Her slaves. So because Supreme Goddess Lorena makes the choice to train many slaves, She makes a reasonable choice to put limitations on the degree of trust and confidentiality She shows to any of Her slaves in particular. By accepting the terms and conditions of my slavery to Her, i accept all the consequences of it.

Again, some (or many) people say that just because the internet puts such a great trust and confidentiality problem, that opposes cyberrelationships to real life relationships. Again, i do not agree. Also in ‘face to face’ life people love to experiment with personalities. And that puts the problem of which of the personalities a person is showing is the ‘real’ personality and the ‘fake’ personality. And also in face to face relationships we want to give our trust to the ‘real’ person. Think of the very romantic lover who turns out to be just another jerk right after marriage. And honestly, i think that in this example it is even impossible to decide which of the personalities is the ‘real’ one, the romantic lover or the jerk.

So the things that play in my cyberrelationship to Supreme Goddess Lorena are the same one that play in face to face relationships for centuries. Over time we have learned to ‘check’ for trust in face to face relationships. Mothers could at least try to warn Their Daughters that romantic lovers could turn into just the same kind of jerk Their father is. In cyberrelatonsships we are the ‘first generation’: no one can teach us how to ‘check’ for trust. We have the ‘privilege’ to find it out for ourselves.

I feel i can submit more to Supreme Goddess Lorena. I feel She can dominate me more. Just at this moment the way we relate shows the limitations it puts on an ‘easy going’ development of our relationship. It brings me in a strange mood. If it brings also some inspiration to think about the ‘reality’ cyberrelationships and face to face relationship share, well maybe i contributed a little bit to the sloppy learning curve of trust and confidentiality on the internet.

3th Anniversary of Academy for slaves

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The Academy for slaves celebrates it’s 3 anniversary on July, 28. As a graduate of three of the excellent trainings of the Academy i want to congratulate Supreme Goddess Lorena, the Foundress and HeadMistress of the Academy and all the Trainers. And i hope the Academy has a big future ahead. The Academy has a key role to play in the advancement of Female Supremacy. A lot of men have submissive feelings, but few of them are properly trained to serve Superior Women in all Their needs.

Gratitude

This anniversary is a good occasion for me to reflect on the training i went through at the Academy for slaves. What is most important to me, is that the training changed my personality. Before i entered the Academy i was a man with submissive feelings, but i was on the lose. i didn’t know what to do with these feelings. Now, i consider my submission as the basic dimension of my personality. And it has become a real ‘power’ in my life. Being a slave to the Superior Needs of a Woman is very difficult, and a ‘perfect’ slave doesn’t exist. But because the training worked at the level of my personality, my submission really has become an ‘energy’ that helps me to become a better slave every day. i am grateful to Supreme Goddess Lorena for all Her efforts on my training. Her training really changed my life, and changed it for the better.

Recommendation

Of course i want to recommend the Academy for slaves to my fellow men. As a Female Supremist i think all men can better their lifes by at least following a basic training at the Academy. But especially for these men that are already aware of their submissive feelings, it is a great opportunity to finally do something useful with these feelings. Be a man, face your submission, enter the Academy. Recently, Supreme Goddess Lorena gave me the permission to browse bdsm forums on the internet. And what i read there makes me say that there really is a great need for training of submissive men. i see a lot of men claiming to be submissive, but who are concerned primarily about their penis. i see a lot of men claiming they want to serve the needs of a Woman, but at the same time talking to them in a very rude language. And i hear these men complaining that there is no Superior Woman who wants them. And many times i think: you poor man, a little bit of training at the Academy would help you so much.

Warning

At the same time i want to warn all the men who are considering to enter the Academy for slaves. The training is not a ‘play’ and the training is not about your fetishes. The training is about your submission and about the Superior Needs of a Woman. i even want to ask that those lowly males who are only interested in ‘play’ will refrain from bothering the Trainers with their silly wishes. The time of the Trainers, and especially of the HeadMistress is very precious. And if you are not serious about your intentions to become a better slave, you never pass the admission procedure. But even if you are ready, be prepared to the shocking experience the training can be.

Comfort

But if you want to enter the Academy, i want to comfort you too. The training is shocking and life changing, no doubt about that. But because the training is so personal, the Trainers never leave you alone. The standards of Supreme Goddess Lorena concerning the personal guidance of the Trainers is very high. This is just normal for Her: because She sets high standards for slavery, She sets high standards for those Women that want to train men into their slavery. Of course, there is a general framework for the training. And all trainees must obey the same set of strict rules. But within that framework, all attention goes to your unique personality as a slave. Of course, the main goal of the training is to be a better slave to the Superior Needs of Women. But close to that is the goal of the personal development of the slave. Even after one training course you are more aware of your submission, and you are more proud of it. Just because the Trainers make you understand that your submission is your only way to be close to the Superior Woman you adore.

Circle of slaves

After having successfully completed three training courses at the Academy, i am not in any of it's training courses at this moment, but i am still a full member and i feel just like any of it's trainees. The Academy is like a university. Teaching and research are closely intertwined. Apart from Her educational mission, Supreme Goddess Lorena is very dedicated to the advancement of Female Supremacy. Of course, She leads this magnificent project. But She really invites and encourages slaves to participate in the project. It is somewhat strange. Inevitably, this project leads to deeper submission and more slavery for the men that are involved in it. Yet, Supreme Goddess Lorena has a very faithful and growing circle of slaves who want to go that way. This devotion and dedication is for a great part due to the power of Supreme Goddess Lorena, which is a total and very natural power. It is a sexual and intellectual power at the same time. But because Her power is so natural, it is natural to submit to Her.

Hope

As a personal conclusion. The more i submit to Supreme Goddess Lorena., the more i feel i am a complete person: a lowly man, aware of his submission who has found his destiny in serving the Supreme Goddess. my Training at the Academy opened the path to my submission. So i am joyfully celebrating it’s third anniversary. And i keep working on my further submission to Supreme Goddess Lorena, in the hope She one day will considering ownership of me.

in this blog you can read more about the different training courses i toke.
Further recommended reading: this article on the Academy website.

Independence day and the pursuit of happiness

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i am not an American. But of course i know the 4th of July as Independance Day. And i know ‘Life, Liberty and the Pursuit of Happiness’ is one of the famous phrases in the United States’ Declaration of Independence. And until recently, i fully agreed with the common sense behind these concepts… The common sense is: to pursue happiness you must be at least free (liberty) and independent. But is this true?
At least for me, it isn’t true anymore. i make my position clear from the beginning. i want to pursue happiness in my life. But in order to truly do so, i am actually in a process of giving up liberty for slavey and of becoming more and more ‘dependent’ of the Woman who’s slave and worshipper i want to be. And until now, everything indicates that by giving up freedom and independence i come closer to what happiness means in my life.

Does independency exists?

Maybe for a starter: does independence and liberty exists? In a certain sense yes. If you are a child, and you grow up, you want to become ‘independent’ of your parents. So, you want a job to gain a proper wage. And after a few years (or months?) you find out that you are financially independent of your parents now, just to become a wage slave, and totally dependent on your employer. Your parents told you to be at home at midnight.and that doesn’t mean liberty? You end up with an employer who tells you to be at work at 7 a.m., so after a few months of feasting on your salary, you most happily end at home every night at 10 p.m., just to go to bed because you have to rise early for your employer. Liberty? Independence?
This is a small, almost ridiculous example. But more fundamentally, are we ‘independent’? We believe what CNN, Berlusconi or Fox News are telling us. We are wearing what Levi’s or Prada is telling us to wear. We eat and drink what McDonald’s and Coca Cola are telling us to eat and drink. That is just ‘consumer society’, where the pursuit of happiness means to consume what the producers are telling us to consume. Liberty? Independence?
This ‘dependence’ as a consumer we all know, and great philosophers and sociologists have made a critique of that kind of society. But gradually, i became aware i am ‘dependent’ in a much more fundamental way yet. i am a male being, and in my natural state i am dependent on my ‘natural’ male desires. For a lot of men this means the liberty to spread their sperm the way they like it. For a lot of men this means to be in an eternal competition with their fellow (?) men, even if this means making war and counting the casualties. Is this the pursuit of where the penis (or the gun) leads you or is this the pursuit of happiness?

my pursuit of happiness

i am a lowly man, and the first step in my pursuit of happiness is to admit it. It is like an alcoholic going to an AA-meeting the first time and saying: ‘i am x. and i am an alcoholic’. Just to admit frees your mind and soul. i am a man with submissive feelings, i knew this from a very early age. But once i admitted i am a lowly male, i could accept these feelings as a ‘strong’ dimension in my personality. And that is really the next step in the pursuit of happiness, because it is through my submission i can relate in a proper way to a Superior Woman.
Of course, finding a Woman who really wants to care for your submission isn’t easy. But as the founding fathers of the US understood, nobody can promise you happiness, what is important is that you are free to pursue your happiness. i am most happy now that i have found Supreme Goddess Lorena. First She trained me to accept my submission as the core dimension of my personality. Now She allows me to worship and to serve Her, and i feel i am in a process of giving up my existence as an ‘independent’ being and of becoming more ‘dependent’ on my Goddess. And as i feel it now, it is like if i have reached a state of total ‘dependency’ of Her, my pursuit of happiness will have come to an end in a nirvana of submission.
Of course, if you are brainwashed to believe that it is ‘independence’ that matters, going to a process of becoming dependent is difficult. And we should be very careful in giving meaning to that concept. If you browse on a typical bdsm-forum, you meet a lot of men with submissive fantasies, and they are ‘dependent’ of Women to fulfil their fantasies that really have become fetishes for them. So, in reality they are dependent of their fetishes, and they ‘use’ Women to fulfil these fetishes. That is not the kind of ‘dependency’ a lowly male needs in his pursuit of happiness. If he really wants to turn his submission in something that leads to happiness, he has to become dependent of the Superior Needs of the Woman he serves. This must be the reference for his life and for his acts. In this way he becomes dependent on what a Superior Woman wants and he is no longer dependent on his desires as a lowly male.
In the case of Supreme Goddess Lorena, we can even take this one step further. She is one of these rare Women who is strong enough to create a world of Her own. That is one reason why She is a true Goddess. So, ‘becoming dependent’ on Her really means entering Her world and accepting the place She gives you in Her world. And because She is a very complete Person, She stimulates Her slaves to be complete in their submission. Again, this is not easy, but as a submissive male, you really feel you are on your pursuit of happiness while becoming dependent of the world view of Supreme Goddess Lorena.
i just give two examples of what it means to me to become ‘dependent’ on Supreme Goddess Lorena. It are just examples, because Supreme Goddess Lorena knows Her slaves in a very personal way and has a specific path for the submission of each one of them. The first example: Supreme Goddess Lorena controls my chastity (not with chastity devices, just with mental power of both of us). This means less, but also better orgasms for me. But what is most important: the way She controls my chastity makes that my climaxes are less ‘selfish’, less centered at my own penis. They have become a way to worship Her and a way to relate my existence as a lowly male to the mysteries of nature. So, i am more ‘dependent’ now, but truly have made progress in my pursuit of happiness, even in a spiritual way.
The second example is about money. Supreme Goddess Lorena invites Her slaves to send Her gifts and tributes. i don’t feel like i am Her ‘financial slave’ right now, and i openly discussed with Her about my limits due to obligations i have in my other life. But offering gifts and tributes to my Goddess is a normal way to worship Her nonetheless. So in spending my money i am less independent now. But at the same time, i think i made progress in my pursuit of happiness. When i am walking in the city, (in my own city as well when i am on holidays) i am always looking for beautiful things i can buy for my Goddess. And it is difficult, because Her needs are not only superior but delicate too. So i have to choose in the right way. But this makes me so much more sensitive for the beauty of things and for the craftsmanship that is needed to create them.

Conclusion
So, it is time for a conclusion. ‘Independence’ is largely a fallacy. We are always ‘dependent’: on an employer, or on large companies that prescribe what we consume, or on our lowly male desires. The concept of ‘independence’ as it is used now is no more than a cover up for the ‘dependencies’ that we accept unconsciously. Maybe, if ‘independence’ has a meaning, it can be the ‘independence of choosing our own dependencies’. i freely and consciously decided to accept i am a lowly male, and to become dependent of Supreme Goddess Lorena. i can really make this choice freely and consciously because it is a decisive choice in my pursuit of happiness, even if it means ‘giving up’ independence. i thank Supreme Goddess Lorena for Her efforts to create Her own world and for the opportunity She gives me to be part of that world as a male being that is dependent on Her. And i can only invite male readers to explore Her path in your pursuit to happiness.

The runaway worshipper

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In my previous articles i told somewhat about my training at the Academy for slaves. While i was in training, my life began to change. i learned Supreme Goddess Lorena has a monthly Lorenaism calendar that is very helpful for slaves who want to worship Her. i begged Her to send me the calendar, and i began to follow it. i wanted to do some slave work for Her, and after i begged for it a few times She was so kind to give me permission to do some webwork for Her. In that period my colleagues began to see i was changing: i was in a better shape and more attentive in general. That was what i was feeling too.
If i am honest, i must say it wasn’t just a change of ‘mood’ that could quickly change again. Deep inside i knew my personality had changed. i asked Supreme Goddess Lorena to write an article about it, and i was surprised to find it published on Her website.
But than, suddenly, i stopped with all this. i didn’t engage in a next training program, i stopped following the Lorenaism calendar, i stopped doing the webwork. There certainly wasn’t a specific reason or cause why i stopped. I just… stopped.
Certainly, i can’t say Supreme Goddess Lorena disappointed me in some way or another. Just the opposite: i was convinced She gave me more then i could have ever hoped for. In the article that is now published on Academyforslaves.com i wrote that by making me accept my submission She added a dimension to my personality. i felt grateful to Her, but at the same time… i just left the Academy.
If i look back at it, i understand what was happening. Intuitively i felt my life was changing, and if i continued i couldn’t resist the changes that where happening. On the one hand i wanted these changes. After all, i am a man with submissive feelings, and now i had found Someone who cared for my submission. On the other hand, i couldn’t handle the change in my life. i began to understand that my life really would change. You can find many BDSM-websites that cater for the fetishes of submissive men. And a big part of the so called BDSM-scene is also about these fetishes. But Supreme Goddess Lorena demands true submission, She wants Her needs served, She wants Her worshippers to adhere to true Female Supremacy. And that was simply to much to me at that moment.
So, i did what most men do if they are asked to make a true emotional commitment… i ran away… without even leaving a word for the Woman who gave me so much… And so i proofed by my behaviour one of the points Supreme Goddess Lorena is making… And i did what most men do when running away from an emotional commitment: i began to masturbate like a bonobo in the zoo, i surfed the internet wildly in search for the most exiting images of Dommes…
Now i understand that what i did was wrong. Certainly it was wrong to run away and even not explaining and apologizing with Supreme Goddess Lorena for my rude behaviour. After more then a year –and long before i re-entered the Academy- i finally wrote Her an e-mail to offer my excuses. And when i finally decided to re-enter, i apologized again. Supreme Goddess Lorena accepted my apologies, and i am grateful to Her for Her forgiveness. Offering excuses and being excused is a private matter: it is between the person who made an offence and the person who is offended.
But in this case i want to apologize again in the more public setting of this weblog. i was a male running away from a most wonderful Woman, and males do this to often. This rude behaviour alone makes us ‘lowly’ males. By making my excuses i accept i am a lowly male. By making them in public, i hope more men will take this step.
Running away was not only wrong against Supreme Goddess Lorena. It was wrong against myself too. Supreme Goddess Lorena made me understand submission is a powerful dimension of my personality and She showed me a way to give that dimension its proper place. And just because i was afraid where this way would lead me, i ran downhill in the opposite direction. Now that i decided to go uphill again, i understand what i was missing in these 18 months. i was missing personal growth as a slave and a worshipper of Supreme Goddess Lorena. Throwing away this opportunity for personal growth is doing wrong against my own person. i have to face the fact that i did this. And the best way to do this is simply admit it, and than going on, going uphill where Supreme Goddess Lorena is residing. And the only way uphill is serving and worshipping Her.

Goddess Worshipping... feeling the harmony of D/s

After the humiliation training i didn’t feel humiliated. Of course, Supreme Goddess Lorena did humiliating things to me. And i did understand She or any future Mistress has the right to humiliate me, be it as a punishment or as a mere amusement for Her. But during the training course my resistance to being humiliated decreased. Where in the Basis Obedience Course i learned i am a lowly man, during the Humiliation Course i learned to accept it and to become an object that a Superior Woman can use at Her will. And after all, for a lowly male it isn’t humiliating to be used by a Superior Lady. What really is humiliating is not being used by Her.

All sustainable relations are reciprocal in some way. This is true for a D/s relationship too. i felt that the right of a Superior Woman to humiliate me, is the part of the dynamics flowing from the Mistress to the slave. What has a slave to give in return to keep the dynamics going? Supreme Goddess Lorena is very clear about it: a lowly man must worship a Superior Lady as a Goddess. And that is the next training course She ordered me to take: the Goddess Worshipping training.

Of course, because Supreme Goddess Lorena wants to be called a Goddess, i was used to call Her Supreme Goddess Lorena. This is an elementary rule in the ‘protocol’ of any D/s relationship. At the same time i was puzzled about it. Raised in a Christian tradition it was almost a sin to call a living person a Goddess. And now, the Woman who i felt so attracted to, and who was so kind to take responsibility for my submission, was asking me to learn how to worship Her as a Goddess. Wasn’t that a bridge to far? At the same time, i really felt it was an ‘invitation’ of the Goddess to give it a try, not an ‘obligation’. So, why not give it a try?

As i feel it now, at that moment Supreme Goddess Lorena opened the doors to a new reality for me. She showed me it is possible to integrate a spiritual dimension into a D/s relationship and that it makes that relationship complete. Also in my previous articles on my training i was reluctant to go into my personal experiences to much. Not that i don’t want to share them with you. But i want to encourage you to seek your own experiences. This is certainly true for everything relating to spirituality. For everyone who is open to it, there is a spiritual path into Female Supremacy, but it will be a most personal one. What makes Supreme Goddess Lorena a true Goddess is that She can lead many males on their own personal path.

When i entered the Goddess Worhip training i thought it would be something ‘soft’ – learning some prayers, kneeling with a devoted smile before the image of the Goddess. But maybe this is the hardest training Supreme Goddess Lorena offers to aspirant slaves. For a large part of the program, the slave has to train his body functions, and i mean the most elementary of them. Supreme Goddess Lorena really asks Her slaves to push their limits. Of course through control of the body, a lowly man is no longer the slave of his body, but he opens up to relate to a reality that is deeper and more beautiful. And than, by learning some essential rituals a lowly man learns to see Supreme Goddess Lorena is at the heart of that reality. Suddenly you become aware it is a great opportunity to worship Her, and through that worshipping to connect that deeper reality. You understand you are a lowly man, but that is just your place in nature, and at the same time you understand the very special place of Supreme Goddess Lorena, and you feel happy at Her feet.

Is it ‘soft’? Maybe, because you feel the perfect harmony of the Mistress/slave-relationship. But it is ‘hard’ too, because you are aware of the consequences. You are in this world to serve a Superior Lady, and even in the basic functioning of your body it are no longer your needs but the superior needs of your Mistress that are important. And for you, if you want to be a good slave, it will be a permanent condition to control your body to be in the state of obedience and servitude your Mistress deserves.

To end this article i just want to share two thoughts with you. What is wonderful about Supreme Goddess Lorena is that She began to call Herself a Goddess without ‘understanding’ all the consequences of it. It is just because She felt so many disrespect from lowly males, that She tought: maybe if I call Myself a Goddess, they will understand what respecting a Woman means. But once She called Herself a Goddess, She began to understand She truly is a Goddess, that it isn’t just a name, but Her destiny. Entering the Spiritual World of Supreme Goddess Lorena is not entering a ‘fixed’ and ‘static’ religion, it is entering a dynamic spirituality that evolves as the life of Supreme Goddess Lorena evolves. And by giving your energy as a worshipper, you contribute to that development. This is beautiful.

And to end: if i read through forums on BDSM-websites i often read words connected to ‘worship’. Like in ‘i am a foot worshipper’, or ‘what do you like more as a slave: to worship the feet of your Mistress or the bottom of your Mistress.’ After the worshipping training at the Academy for slaves, i honestly must say i consider that kind of talk as a cheap form of fetishism, oriented to fulfil the needs of the slave, not oriented to truly worship the Superior Lady who is high above you in every aspect of Her life. I don’t say this to be rude, i just say because i discovered there is more then ‘cheap fetishism’, there is a world of ‘deep devotion’. And because i find it a beautiful world, i just want to invite you to explore that world.

Humiliation: the power to stop the 'why'-question

The next training course i took at the Academy for slaves was the ‘Humiliation training’. After the Basic Obedience course i really accepted submission as a valuable dimension of my personality. i felt the power and the superiority of Supreme Goddess Lorena and i was fully aware I was a lowly being, crawling at Her Feet. But was my mind ready to accept to be humiliated by my Mistress, or did what was left from my male pride resist to such humiliation?
The Humiliation Training is a good test to see what is left of that male pride, and certainly the best possible next step to further enslavement.

Again, i do not want to go into great detail about the assignments. If you read this blog, it is probably because you are looking for slave training yourself. Than you have to go your personal way, and to much detail of someone else’s experience can withhold you from searching your own experience.

But i want to share with you a few things I find amazing, now that i look back at the training after some time. First thing: certainly the assignments were ‘difficult’ and ‘stupid’. And at the same time: they were very easy for me. That tells a lot about my state of mind at that moment. i really craved to be humiliated, so i was eager to do everything necessary to make the assignments really humiliating for me. Whatever Supreme Goddess Lorena asked me, i did without questioning. Normally i am a critical person, always asking the ‘why’-question. Now the fact that Supreme Goddess Lorena asked it, was enough to stop all questions from my part. Someone who can make me stop asking the ‘why’-question has real power over me, so if i still needed proof of the power of Supreme Goddess Lorena over me, the humiliation training was all i needed.

Second thing: after some of the assignments i felt a certain ‘intimacy’ (maybe strange in an e-mail training, but a fact for me.) i really wanted to share with Supreme Goddess Lorena what Her humiliating assignments did to me. And by writing freely about it, i made the excercises more humiliating yet. Of course the fact that i could write so freely, tells a lot about the trust I felt for my Trainer at that moment. For people who never experienced the dynamics of a D/s-relationship this must sound incredible: how can you trust someone who is constantly humiliating you? But to me, that is just the beauty of a D/s-relationship, opposed feelings are brought together in one reality. Normally, if you are humiliated by someone, you try to avoid that person. Now, i felt that after each humiliation i was closer to Supreme Goddess Lorena and that i wanted to come closer yet, even if that meant to be humiliated further by Her.

That feeling of intimacy and humiliation at the same time didn’t leave me ever since. Now, when i want to be really close to Supreme Goddess Lorena i hope She will be so kind to humiliate me again. To humiliate someone always asks an effort and a kind of creativity, and it feels good that your Mistress wants to spend that effort and creativity to You. And by accepting the humiliation, you show your respect and trust for Her. So, it is a kind of intimacy, even if it is long distance.

Of course, we must give humiliation it’s proper place in a D/s-relationship. It can be or become a fetish for a slave to be humiliated by his Mistress. And a D/s-relationship is not about the fetishes of a slave, but about the superior needs of the Mistress. But it is just one register a Mistress can use in defining the proper place of the slave. Maybe the case of Supreme Goddess Lorena is something special. She is a very kind person, and She doesn’t need to humiliate people to show Her power. Sometimes She just thinks it is fun to humiliate some lowly males, especially when She is with some of Her Girlfriends. Or sometimes She just thinks you need a lesson, and a little bit of humiliation does the trick quite well.

Obedience - the first step to my slavery

My slave training diary is before me. i am browsing it while i am writing this article. It is sometime ago now, that i was in the training course, but it is amazing how the feelings i had at that time, easily come back. And more amazing yet is the impact of the training. In what i wrote in my training diary, it is obvious i wanted to struggle with the truth Supreme Goddess Lorena was trying to tell me. And now it are simply the rules of my life. Not that i manage to follow the rules to the perfection, but i really see them as the natural condition of my life.

Supreme Goddess Lorena ordered me to take the basic obedience course first. Obedience is the basic attitude Supreme Goddess Lorena expects from Her slaves. She really wants to have it carved in the body and mind of Her slaves, so from the beginning She puts a great effort in the training of Her slaves at that point.

Of course there are different training methods. For instance there is the ‘discipline and correct’-approach. You do something wrong, your trainer punishes you, you do it wrong again, you are punished again, until you do the right thing. Like many aspirant slaves i thought to find that kind of training at the Academy. Isn’t it the approach we see in the ‘usual stuff’ of Femdom pictures and videoclips at the internet? And isn’t the punishment, and especially the physical pain, the ‘real thing’ many submissives males are craving for?

But that isn’t the approach Supreme Goddess Lorena is opting for in Her basic obedience course. She more takes the approach of ‘positive reïnforcement’. You make your first step as an obedient slave and she says ‘well done, slave, now make the following step’. Or ‘you did well in a simple thing, now I will make it a little bit more difficult.’ If i look back, i was very surprised by this approach. A Mistress who encourages Her trainees instead of punishing them? Can it work?

It worked for me... sometimes even in a shocking way. I felt confronted with an emotion i suppressed for such a long time, the emotion of being a submissive male. In Her approach, Supreme Goddess Lorena catered for that emotion. And where i thought that emotion was one of my ‘weakenesses’, She taught me it could be one of my strenghts. At least, if i am honest to myself and ready to accept Her truth about Female Supremacy. I was lucky enough to be in the right state of mind to make that important step. Because Supreme Goddess Lorena appealed in such a strong way to a basic emotion of my personality, i had to go through deep crisises. Sometimes, when i was doing my assignments, my body was trembling and shocking. Sometimes, i cried like a little child. The special training approach of Supreme Goddess Lorena made this possible.

It is obvious that in this way the training of Supreme Goddess Lorena is very personal. So, it makes no sense to go into great detail now. Everybody has to go his own way. Being a slave is after all a personal choice, and everyone who makes that choices has to go his personal way to it. Some of you who read this article, just may find it crazy. That just means my way is not your way, or it is not the right moment for you to go that way. Others may find some points of recognition, and i hope my testimony is helping some of you to go the way to Supreme Goddess Lorena like i did. But it will be your way, your very personal experience.

When i look back, a great advantage of the approach of Supreme Goddess Lorena over the ‘punishment and correction’ approach is that it encourages personal growth. The punishment and correction approach makes a slave occupied with the question ‘didn’t i do anything wrong?’. Supreme Goddess Lorena encourages you to pose an other question: ‘what can i do to be a better slave?’. Because you feel this as a positive energy, you really come open to explore the superior needs of your Mistress, et voilà, there is the slave oath again: ‘in everything i do i must be serving my Mistress.’

And that is what i am going to do now. I am very grateful to Supreme Goddess Lorena She encourages me to write this diary. But i have to catch up some work the Goddess asked me to do for Her. So, i better start doing it now...

Looking backwards at my training at the Academy for slaves

I am a man with submissive feelings. I knew this from a very early age. I didn’t do anything with it until i was in my forties. Now, it feels like i have found ‘my way’ to give this submissive feelings their right place in my life. In a kind of ‘retrospective diary’ i want to share ‘my way’ with others. The bdsm-community is very diverse, and i just want to add my story to that diversity.

For me, it all started when i had the courage to enter the Academy for slaves. I found the Academy during one of the periods of have bdsm surfing, mostly leading to sites with huge collections of fetish pictures. The Academy was different for me from the outset. Of course, the pictures of the Mistresses of the Academy appealed to me. But for one reason or another i understood the Academy wasn’t just another website that was built to give quick release to my fetish desires. I felt this was about real submission, and that was what i wanted.

So, i decided to enter the Academy by paying the entrance fee. And to write an application to the HeadMistress of the Academy to start my training... I didn’t know what to expect, so when i pushed the ‘send’-button i was quite nervous. I remember how i was surprised by the quick answer of the HeadMistress, that was certainly something i didn’t expect. My application pleased Her, so i was allowed to start directly with the first course, the Basic Obedience course.

The first thing i had to do (along with learning the other slave training rules) was learning the slave training oath: ‘In everything i do i have to serve my Mistress.’ That’s an easy one, i thought, sounds nice for a submissive male, it is easy to remember, easy to say... but very difficult to comply with, as i found out a little bit later. ‘Serving the Mistress’ is truly at the core of the training at the Academy for slaves. Supreme Goddess Lorena, Who founded the Academy, became aware that much on the bdsm-scene is about submissive man seeking Dominant Women to fix their fetish. And in that case, it is the ‘so called’ Dominant Woman Who serves the needs of the ‘so called’ submissive man. If you enter the Academy you soon learn that true submission is not about your fetish needs but about the Superior Needs of your Mistress. It is in that kind of true slavery you are trained at the Academy.

Next thing i had to do is... to acquire a notebook, a pen and a ruler. Are these the supplies for my training? I do not need at least a cane? Or some fetish underwear i have to wear during the training courses? A notebook and a pen? Is this all i need to become a good slave in the opinion of the HeadMistress? And a little bit silly, isn’t it? A notebook and a pen, that is for school boys entering primary school at the age of six, not for an adult living in the computer age... But at the same time, easy to do, so why not? But i never guessed at that moment that the notebook i bought would be my close companion for the next few months...

So, this way my training at the Academy had started...

At the end of this first entry about my training at the Academy, just a few quick answers to ‘Frequently asked questions’.

Q. Slave training through the internet, does it work? Do you not need the ‘real life’ presence of a Mistress, at least to give you a good whipping from time to time?

A. The least thing i can say: it worked for me, so if you are looking for a good training opportunity, why not give it a try? Of course, if you have no intrest at all in developing the psychological component of submission and slavery, and you really long for physical pain, the Academy is not your ‘place to be’. But if you feel that submission has to do with a ‘state of mind’, then be sure the Mistresses of the Academy are very good in moulding that state of mind.

Q. You really did/do pay for it? Are you mad?
A. If i want to be a good horse rider, i pay a trainer for some good lessons. If i want to be a computer expert, i pay expensive training courses. If i want to learn how to prepare some delicious salads, i pay a little fee to the local association that organizes some salad preparation courses. So, if i want to be a good slave, and i feel i need training, i don’t have to pay anything? Are you mad?

Q. Okay, but if you have to pay, it is a commercial site after all, it has nothing to do with ‘life style’?
A. i know many horse riding trainers, to whom horse riding is a life style, and as part of that lifestyle they give some lessons. I know many nerds to whom the computer is a lifestyle, and they earn a living by giving courses. And i know many housewives to whom preparing salads is a lifestyle, and to whom sharing their experiences adds to their pleasure, even if it is with silly males in their community who never really will understand the true delights of salad preparation. So i can imagine some ‘life style Mistresses’ who at a certain moment want to make a ‘summary’ of the experience they have build up during the years, and –because They care about the lifestyle- do the effort of creating training courses for newbies and more experienced slaves, just to raise the quality of the slaves in the ‘life style community’.

Worshipping the Goddess, slapping the penis

The last few weeks i was quite buzy with writing articles on this blog and posting on some internet forums. So much was going on in my head that i wanted to be expressed, and i felt a lot of energy and concentration for my webwork. But webwork is an enslavement of its own. It absorbs you and keeps you going. And as always while being busy working, you forget about important things. Or even worse, about important persons.

A few hours walking in the early sun of spring is very helpful in getting your priorities right again. So, it felt like i had put so much energy in sorting out and writing about my feelings for Supreme Goddess Lorena, that i forgot about the Goddess Herself. And after all, it are not my feelings that matter, it is Supreme Goddess Lorena Who is at the center of the universe in which i am a little particle.

So, i decided to start this beautiful day with some extra effort on my daily worshipping of the Goddess. i took some more time to decorate Her altar. While bowed for Her image i really tried to free myself of all thoughts that distract from the Goddess. i slowly red two of the prayers i wrote in Her honour in the Lorenaism bible. And i opened my heart and my mind for Her Divine Radiation.

Supreme Goddess Lorena is full of mercy for Her worshippers. So, after some time on my knees before Her image i felt the pure feelings of submission to Her and of adoration for Her divinity. It is an emotion that is very difficult to put into wording (so very difficult to share) but that is very real. It settles in your body and mind, and has a very real influence in your doing and thinking.

When worshipping the Goddess, it is always the beauty of Supreme Goddess Lorena that makes the first impressions in my mind. The Goddess invites Her worshippers to really look at the beauty of Her body. It makes a slave really happy to always discover some new aspects of that beauty. Sometimes, my eyes stay with one particular part of Her body, like the hands, or the feet, or the eyes. Sometimes it are the magnificent lines of Her body as a whole that keep the focus.

Worshipping this pure beauty, makes my submissive mind always at ease. And then i open up to the wisdom of Supreme Goddess Lorena. Like all true wisdom, it is very simple. Women are superior, men are inferior. So the best thing a man can do is stop serving his fetishes and start serving the superior needs of a Woman. If he has the luck that She accepts him as Her slave, he has reached the highest possible goal in his life. Here, i need three phrases to explain it, but bowed before Her divine image, i really feel it. Her beauty and her wisdom are one, and by worshipping Her beauty, you immediately access Her Divine Thruth.

After a longer then usual worshipping session, i resumed the chores in the house. But i must say, Her beautiful image didn’t leave me. And what happens to slaves who adore their Mistresses and Goddesses, i really got aroused. As i still have no permission to climax, i came in a difficult situation. So i returned to Her altar, bowed my head, got on my knees and worshipped Her again. During the session, i slapped my penis frequently as She has teached me during the humiliation course at the Academy. It felt really good to do that, as a proof of my chastity and Her power over me.

So, this is a happy slave writing these words. Happy because such a beautiful and wise Goddess allows him to worship Her. Happy because the beauty of his Goddess leads him into temptation. And happy that Her wisdom (a few slaps on the penis never really hurt a slave) keeps me out of trouble. Thank You, Supreme Goddess Lorena.

E-mail and E-motions: slavetraining@the.internet

i feel completely submitted and devoted to Supreme Goddess Lorena. Until now, i never saw Her, and most probably i will never see Her. An ocean and some thousand kilometers split us apart. The internet links us close together. i kneel down, close my eyes and i feel Her foot on my back. Because Her mind is that strong, and the internet makes the mind fly with the speed of light.

Internet and bdsm: a sometimes controversial issue. If i ‘admit’ on an internet forum that i have that kind of relation with my Mistress, some die hard ‘real life’-ers are ready to slam me down. Internet is not the ‘real thing’, you must feel the whip of your Lady to be a ‘real’ slave. The ‘virtual’ internet is for wannabee slaves. But doesn’t the internet necessitates us to redefine what is ‘real’ and what is ‘virtual’?

Not to much philosophy here, personal experience is much more interesting. And i want to share my experience as a slave related to his Mistress by the internet. i do not consider this as the ‘ideal’ relationship. But after my first girl friend ended our relationship that was meant for eternity to get laid by the football team captain and then the next weekend to get laid by the basketball team captain, i stopped dreaming of ideal relationships. Now that i am in my mid forties i know how precious even imperfect relationships are.

In this posting, i want to tell some more about by training period at the Academy for slaves. What is offered at the Academy for slaves is basically e-mail training. You choose a training course and do the assignments of the course. You send in your training reports and the Mistresses of the Academy give you a real close follow up. Simple as that...

... but mindshocking for me. i remember the reactions of my body in the basic obedience course. When Supreme Goddess Lorena instructed me in one of Her articles on what real submission to a Women means, my body shocked like it never did before. When i did reflect on how to be a good slave, i cried. Since that first girlfriend left me at the age of 16, i can count the times i cried on just one hand. Just because Supreme Goddess Lorena did understand how to touch the ‘string of submission’ in my mind and body, She released a flow of emotions i never guessed having suppressed for such a long time. In the training the ‘virtual means’ of the internet were used, but the changes it caused in my personality and my emotional well being were very ‘real’.

Of course, this is very ‘personal’. What works for me, maybe just doesn’t work for you. Because you and me are different persons. But if you are a little bit like me, and the psychology of submission matters to you, then maybe internet training is something for you. If you are just wondering if it isn’t all fake, know that it largely depends on you. If you are committed to dig in your personality and if you don’t ‘fake’ it yourself, it can work.

Is it the most perfect training you can imagine? Certainly not. And if you want the ideas of Supreme Goddess Lorena about the perfect training of a slave, just read Her book ‘Femaria, City of Women’. If you ask me, a few slaps in the face would be helpful to more quickly learn the essential slave rules, a few strokes of the cane would be effective in reminding the right of a Superior Lady to punish a slave at Her will. But as ‘perfection’ and ‘human relation’ are quite incompatible, it is honourable to settle for ‘good enough’. And in the case of my slave training with Supreme Goddess Lorena it was ‘more then i expected’.

Is training at the Academy for slaves the ‘alfa and omega’ of your life as a slave? Most probably not. You train if you want to start something you don’t know, and you train if you have some experience and because you have experience you understand you are failing in some aspects. Then life goes on. Certainly if you want to start your life as a slave, and for you being a slave means really to serve a Mistress (as opposed to hoping a Mistress will cater for your fetishes), then you should consider to take some courses with Supreme Goddess Lorena. You will be proud to present yourself to your Mistress as a well mannered slave who knows how to serve the superior needs of your Mistress. And some of you, maybe, will long to be owned by Supreme Goddess Lorena herself.